Dear diary,

I feel so trapped here. Everyday I come to work and have nothing to do. I feel so useless. All I seem to do everyday at the office is come in, have my breakfast, check some emails, surf around and just stare at the computer the rest of the day. The only times I look forward to is lunch time and 6pm (work officially is over time).

I SO have to find another job that is challenging. This job WAS challenging in the beginning but now, it’s so much a routine, I’m bored. I like it when there’s a lot of work to do, and I feel pressed for time. Even though it is hectic, I like the rush of it.

Now, I have nothing to do and thus I feel bored, even though I can go online and surf and whatnots. But can you imagine, surfing the net EVERYDAY and in discretion as my boss can’t know. When they do walk by, I just minimize everything and stare at my outlook emails, and there are no new emails, just staring at the same old emails, over and over again. Anyone who comes to my place often enough, would realize in time that I have been basically looking at the same things day in, day out.

I need a change but yet I don’t know what I wanna do yet. I wish someone could read my mind (or palm / face) and tell me what I should pursue in. Let’s see, I like the rush of working with a lot of departments, don’t like routines, don’t need to travel (no license) but yet get to meet new people. Anyone can recommend anything?

I have been sending out resumes but never really following up with it as I don’t know what I wanna do, to begin with. Another reason is because I am quite comfortable here. I like all my colleagues here and because there’s not much to do, I feel relaxed (TOO RELAXED). I know this is a bad thing as I’m just wasting my talent and knowledge like this and I should get off my fat-ass and do something about it.

Haih…. I need help!!!