Dear diary,

Such a sad week. All in all, 4 of my good friends cum colleagues have/is leaving the company. Yesterday, GG and CF left the company. Today is Kat and Ham’s last day. Indeed a very depressing week. Well, I do wish them well with their new jobs and I think by them leaving is actually a good thing. This company is such a shithole for everyone. Even I’m thinking of leaving but have yet to tender my resignation as I have no standby job yet. But no matter what, I have already decided that I will tender by this month (November) and will work till December. Kat has told me of an opening in her new company and I hope I can get in cos then I can work together with friends again. I have to keep my fingers crossed.

On a lighter note, I went yumcha with Pink yesterday night. I didn’t get to tell her on my updates as we were merely talking about our group of friends and all their problems. Seems like a lot has happened for the last I saw the group. Well, I can gladly say that I feel lucky for not being involved with all their shits as I know I would become as annoyed and irritated as Pink towards them. Unfortunately for her, she is always the middle-person cum counselor in the group and everyone just seem to flock to her with their problems. And she feels so burdened by it, on top her own problems.

Hopefully Pink and me will have another one to one session and we can talk more on our own stuff.

Dear diary,

I feel so alone these days. It’s not that I don’t have friends. I have loads of them but it’s just that I don’t feel as close to them as I used to.

As it is, I actually have 2 very good friends, let’s call them Pink and GG. GG has been my bestfriend since high school and Pink has been since collage. After GG left for further studies in Aus, Pink and me have gotten close to the extend of spending almost everyday together and having heart to heart talks.

Ever since GG came back from Aus, Pink and I have drifted apart tremendously. Instead, Pink and GG have started to get very close. They seem to go out a lot and without my knowledge. And when I ask Pink to go out, she tells me that she has a lot of things to do and can’t spend time with me. Obviously, I felt hurt but I can’t tell her that cos she will think that I’m being sensitive. So, at the end of the day, I keep it all in and sooner or later, burst out…

I feel so neglected and lonely.

Dear diary,


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This is how I feel of late.

Dear diary,

I feel so trapped here. Everyday I come to work and have nothing to do. I feel so useless. All I seem to do everyday at the office is come in, have my breakfast, check some emails, surf around and just stare at the computer the rest of the day. The only times I look forward to is lunch time and 6pm (work officially is over time).

I SO have to find another job that is challenging. This job WAS challenging in the beginning but now, it’s so much a routine, I’m bored. I like it when there’s a lot of work to do, and I feel pressed for time. Even though it is hectic, I like the rush of it.

Now, I have nothing to do and thus I feel bored, even though I can go online and surf and whatnots. But can you imagine, surfing the net EVERYDAY and in discretion as my boss can’t know. When they do walk by, I just minimize everything and stare at my outlook emails, and there are no new emails, just staring at the same old emails, over and over again. Anyone who comes to my place often enough, would realize in time that I have been basically looking at the same things day in, day out.

I need a change but yet I don’t know what I wanna do yet. I wish someone could read my mind (or palm / face) and tell me what I should pursue in. Let’s see, I like the rush of working with a lot of departments, don’t like routines, don’t need to travel (no license) but yet get to meet new people. Anyone can recommend anything?

I have been sending out resumes but never really following up with it as I don’t know what I wanna do, to begin with. Another reason is because I am quite comfortable here. I like all my colleagues here and because there’s not much to do, I feel relaxed (TOO RELAXED). I know this is a bad thing as I’m just wasting my talent and knowledge like this and I should get off my fat-ass and do something about it.

Haih…. I need help!!!